The oddness of my life
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The oddness of my life
Most people will roll their eyes and say sure... But though I cannot prove it I am certain there is something listening to me and occasionally responding. Call me schitzophrenic of whatever, I'm indifferent to that. It's gotten to an odd point where it's become an ordeal.
I am an anxious person by my own faults. Pretty much based on the topics I choose to look it. Regular **** loses my attention and more complex and frightening topics give me a sense of dread but I tend to go towards them. I think it's because of the absurd and scary nature of many topics.
War, god, life, human characteristics and the reasons for this world. Most of them are meaningless. They have no bearing on my life but I tend to be drawn towards that **** out of fascination and pure obsession. I can not really turn my brain off. It's a computer that keep processing **** all day long.
I will start off on one things and out of guilt, strange correlation and other things in between I will get into a whole other subject or thing from one thing. I use the internet as a place to put my ideas into words and meanings for other people because they can't just live in my head. Though I am not sure many people think like I do I believe you are all here because you are interested in life and morality. **** like that.
You all have your own opinions that want to be voiced and heard. Responded too and critiqued to get a better understand of what it is you want to find. If not, I don't know why you would be here. Anyway, this thread is for voicing your thought process to better help me with mine in a regard and so I can understand yours.
I shared my end of it so you can get a glimpse into how I work and possible let someone else know they are not alone in this thinking. I know I'm not the only one though I have never spoken to someone with the same problems I have.
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It is normal and right for intelligent people to have internal dialogues. Indeed, people who lack internal dialogues are robotic. For instance when you read a book or newspaper, or hear a news report on the television or radio you actually should be questioning what you hear . If you do not mentally question what you have been thinking or hearing or reading then you are ripe for being misled by others who may be stupid or malevolent.I tend to talk to myself all day long more or less in a narrative way conversing with myself I guess. I'm never really sure what the hell is responding back to me.
It is also right and proper to have these investigative thoughts in words and sentences that make sense. This is because most people do their serious thinking via language.
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I see what people say and occasionally I respond. Sometimes the response are inane or I have nothing to say about that. The common above was a good one but I had nothing to say about the personal dialog in others heads. With that being said it all depends on where your personal dialog and if another entity responds.Steve3007 wrote: ↑March 10th, 2021, 6:35 am SneakySniper179, you keep starting these new topics about your personal demons, your issues with your upbringing, and such like, but you don't seem to ever follow up very much with much in the way of subsequent conversation. You generally just start another new topic. It makes me wonder what your purpose is here. Is it simply to view the reactions to your opening posts?
The was the basis of the thread therefore I am waiting for an on topic response.
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Fair enough.I see what people say and occasionally I respond. Sometimes the response are inane or I have nothing to say about that. The common above was a good one but I had nothing to say about the personal dialog in others heads. With that being said it all depends on where your personal dialog and if another entity responds.
The was the basis of the thread therefore I am waiting for an on topic response.
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On the constantly thinking or searching however, you might have a similar impulse going on that I do - ie. that you want to 'live' in a state of sanity, you're trying to do that from the basis of a largely insane and predatory world, and you may be wondering just how much you have to learn to be able to actually live in your integrity (ie. developing toward your best self) and do so successfully rather than having to mangle your character and become a backstabbing mercenary in order to survive the power games that it seems most people throw themselves on to survive.
The really ugly thing about that dilemma - if you have to void your best self in order to survive, and really run down the developmental hierarchy, then you're in a state where surviving is far less enjoyable than it could be if you were able to keep your principles. OTOH if you keep your principles without learning how to deal with power games then you become another person's lunch.
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I totally agree with that.Papus79 wrote: ↑March 11th, 2021, 12:53 pm I won't worry about the self-dialog bit too much because I think it's been addressed.
On the constantly thinking or searching however, you might have a similar impulse going on that I do - ie. that you want to 'live' in a state of sanity, you're trying to do that from the basis of a largely insane and predatory world, and you may be wondering just how much you have to learn to be able to actually live in your integrity (ie. developing toward your best self) and do so successfully rather than having to mangle your character and become a backstabbing mercenary in order to survive the power games that it seems most people throw themselves on to survive.
The really ugly thing about that dilemma - if you have to void your best self in order to survive, and really run down the developmental hierarchy, then you're in a state where surviving is far less enjoyable than it could be if you were able to keep your principles. OTOH if you keep your principles without learning how to deal with power games then you become another person's lunch.
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Well said. Papus has described and explained existentialism and how hard it is to be authentic. A religious person might say Papus has explained how hard it is to preserve your own soul.Papus79 wrote: ↑March 11th, 2021, 12:53 pm I won't worry about the self-dialog bit too much because I think it's been addressed.
On the constantly thinking or searching however, you might have a similar impulse going on that I do - ie. that you want to 'live' in a state of sanity, you're trying to do that from the basis of a largely insane and predatory world, and you may be wondering just how much you have to learn to be able to actually live in your integrity (ie. developing toward your best self) and do so successfully rather than having to mangle your character and become a backstabbing mercenary in order to survive the power games that it seems most people throw themselves on to survive.
The really ugly thing about that dilemma - if you have to void your best self in order to survive, and really run down the developmental hierarchy, then you're in a state where surviving is far less enjoyable than it could be if you were able to keep your principles. OTOH if you keep your principles without learning how to deal with power games then you become another person's lunch.
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IMHO philosophy, mysticism, anything with self-authorship and heightened self-regulation as it's goal seems to be about making the self, as its desired to be, more resilient to the slings and arrows. That's part of why I think so many of the more abstract and arcane toolkits, like meditating on the tarot in the Jodorowsky or Tomberg sense, aren't likely to go away either - ie. more scaffolding to ensure survival and establish stronger internal touch-points.
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Flattery is like chewing gum..... Enjoy but never swallow.SneakySniper179 wrote: ↑March 9th, 2021, 12:20 am I think that y'all will find this thread to be more or less interesting. I tend to talk to myself all day long more or less in a narrative way conversing with myself I guess. I'm never really sure what the hell is responding back to me. I've been told I am psychic and I am sure of that to a small extent.
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