Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
I begin by saying that possibly not everyone will understand this, because of the complexity of putting to words non-dual ideas by dualistic ideas (Language).
This is just an excuse, as explaining thee one and only One in words is really extremely simple, and thus not complex at all.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
Understand that proposing a separation between Duality and Non-duality is already a dualistic notion of the mind.
Any notion of actual separation exists only in the brain. The human brain is actually the thing that makes thee One appear separate. The brain does this by compartmentalizing and separating with names and by labels.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
So bear with me the complexity of the matter, and sorry if I contradict myself in anyway.
If you contradict (your-self, which by the way is a very separated, wrong, and contradictory dual word in and of itself, just in case you had not noticed before), but anyway, if you contradict, then why?
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
I just truly discovered this notion of "wholeness", "unity" or "oneness" from non-duality.
Did you truly just discover this, or did you really learn this from some other source?
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
This idea is very frightening for me, because it collapses my experience of reality. Awareness is all that there is, every other thing is a mind-created concept.
What is this 'mind' thing exactly?
Could it be the case that even this 'mind' thing is actually just another created by the human brain concept? After all, there are not many people at all that are able to agree on what this 'mind' thing is exactly.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
I will not explain non-duality in depth and the big metaphysical implications of it as it is still a very fresh idea that is nurturing my mind. I will just ponder of the ideas that have entered my mind, and are intelligible as of now. So, Non-Duality is awareness itself. There is no separation of ego/thought or object/subject.
But there is plenty of separation going on by that ego separating it 'self', though thought, object and subject.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
Precisely because experience is all it is, and experience IS consciousness.
'Experience' is experience, and, 'Consciousness' is Consciousness.
Consciousness is just
being Aware of ALL-THERE-IS.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
There is no experiential state if there is no awareness, therefore "being" is all there truly is. This is without having this "I" that is assumed to be doing the experiencing.
You are confusing and conflating thee one and only 'I', the Being with Awareness and Consciousness of ALL-THERE-IS, with the human 'i', the being that separates with names and labels, what essentially is not, and can not be, separated.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
For some this mystical ego-transcendence is beautiful, because of the divine nature of it(How this pure state of awareness feels). And also because it is the ultimate truth. It is the true nature of nature. Duality is the greatest enemy to non-duality (Obviously). But get this, in order to reach non-duality you MUST purge the duality of the mind. So, having a firmly dualistic mind will not comprehend this in any way.
Is the reason 'you' can not understand and comprehend this fully yet is because 'you' are a firmly dualistic creature by nature?
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
Because non-duality is experienced, it is not known by a rational explanation.
But it is already KNOWN by and through rational explanation. This is because Conscious Awareness KNOWS the rational explanation ALREADY. The dual nature of being a human being does not yet know this rational explanation, and so will make the ridiculous and stupid comments and remarks like; "Non-duality is not known by a rational explanation".
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
For the explanation of it is dualistic in nature,
No it is not. This is because there is only thee Truly One, and therefore, only the Truly One Truth as well, which obviously holds the rational explanation.
Dualistic human thinking continue to state these truly wrong dualistic irrational thoughts, which you have just said and expressed as though it was some sort of truth.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
because language is dualistic and always implies separation.
The language you choose to use may cause an appearance of separation, this is because 'you' are firmly held in dualistic thought.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
People engage in meditation to reach this perceptual change of awareness.
Maybe so, but it is not necessarily so, needed.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
My biggest fear is knowing that everything I have experienced up until now has been an illusion.
Will you provide any examples?
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
A product of the mind's intrinsic tendency to dualism. Everything seems false, nothing is real. Truth is just one. Up until now my philosophical "truths"(Or any thought of that matter) have been dualistic. So, I reach some sort of existential crisis or nihilistic crisis in nature. Not only that, but all of my dreams, hopes, my personal realizations are far from truth. Any meaning becomes meaningless. It is not worth living for something at it is just a concept, a construct of the mind that separates me and true reality. In a crude way, it is all fake. I can't even think without separation so it troubles me more.
If thinking happens without separation, then you are an extremely long way from understanding and knowing thee One.
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
I seem to be on the brink of death speaking about these troubling thoughts.
Well that is a prime example of the ego at work, "rationalizing".
Tosen wrote: ↑May 6th, 2018, 10:35 pm
For now, everything seems bearable. But I don't know where I will end up if this destroys me. Any thoughts to this?
If all this was just about that ego 'i' and 'it' wondering where 'it' will supposedly "end up", as though that is of any importance, then what this post started out as very quickly turned around to that ego only caring at 'its' 'self'.