Haller wrote:These things are fine and dandy, but why am I so drawn to ignoring them? Why is there a compulsion for the mundane? Why do I feel I have to be noticed to the point where the most important things in life are over-shadowed? Not just over-shadowed, almost drowned completely. Also These so-called important things are so easy to ignore, and so ambiguous that it would seem for all intents and purpouses they WANTED to be ignored. I can not see why important warning signs and such are so confusing and subliminal that they are hard to identify themselves, much less thier meanings...
You were trained that way.
If you are like most people .. you are not paid to be creative .. from 9 to 5 you are paid to be the most efficient (and cost effective) cog in the machine of production.
If you have a job .. no one has figured out a way to automate your job yet and replace you with a machine. Or you are the still the most cost effective way so far.
On your off days you have been trained to distract yourself from your emptiness. Watch TV and absorb advertisements and go out and buy all that stuff that you can afford. And after that ... use your credit card to buy the stuff you can not afford .. and that keeps you glued to the cog machine .. in order to pay off the loans. This is being a good citizen.
These are the men that you are trying to hide from. They want you to be 'normal'.
> Why do I feel I have to be noticed to the point
> where the most important things in life are over-shadowed?
This takes a bit of background to explain. But it is easy to understand. It is the result of suppressing your human nature in order to be the cog and more machine like ... for the sake of mass production.
But it is a typical subconscious drive in the cog-culture.
We all feel so mundane, so cog-ish, so normal, so ignored, so de-humanized, so emotionally dead .. that it cause a powerful subconscious drive to the other extreme. We desperately
want to feel alive (emotionally and creatively) .. However .. it must be repressed in order to conform .. your security in the system is your conformity. And so it remains a wish, a dream of freedom.
In the movie 'Fight Club' .. life is so machine like and mundane (we are trained to be mundane) .. that only extreme violence effects us. A few people notice that being a victim of extreme violence .. makes them feel .. alive!
At one point in the movie one of the members dies ... and the chant is, "He has a name. His name is Robert Paulson!".. the ultimate extreme violence makes him an .. individual. It give him a name! that no one knew before.
anyways ...
I think I explained some where at this forum .. how repressing a normal human drive .. only makes that drive all the more powerful. My analogy of trying to use your hand to flatten an air filled balloon to the table. It pushes back anywhere your hand is not. And it pushes back equal to the force it is being repressed with. In fact .. greater.
If entirely repressed .. it will turn into psycho-somatic illness or any number of psychological problems that force their way out by budging through the cracks. Most are self destructive while some are other-destructive.
There is a few pages in a book by Dostoevsky (I think it was him) in which two Russian soldiers (WWII) capture a German soldier. One Russian wants to shoot him .. but the other says "No. There is a better way."" and proceeds to stomp on the German's head and face with his boots - until his boots are all bloody and the German is dead. When asked 'Why?' the Russian replies that he wanted to 'feel' the life drain from the man. The point being that only though extreme violence on someone else - did he himself feel alive.
However .. we can not be trained against our will. We had a part in this deadening of our human nature. We just didn't realizes that once internalized .. it would run on automatic line a loop program even after the particular situation in which we thought it good .. has long past. How do we turn these programs off?
Easy (almost).
But we first have to learn just how the subconscious mind works. And then we have to realize that the answer does not lay in re-programing the subconscious mind .. yet again.
anyways .. off to bed with me now.
Cheers
-DeMeriden