Your personal view of God is interesting, although a little different from my own. [Not all THAT much.
] I could try to offer my own view of God, but that isn't what this topic is about. This topic presents a "paradox" which is not a paradox. It basically says that when believers are directly confronted with the One and Only (atheist) Truth, they back down from their beliefs. I do not believe this is the case in practice, for real believers in the real world.
Yeah, that's absolute balderdash. The Atheist Truth that we must all come to grips with, know in our hearts is true, and cannot forever deny is this:
1. Consciousness, er, first-person subjective experience magically comes into existence after previously being something that does not exist.
2. Consciousness (first-person subjective experience) is something that can magically wink out of existence.
3. Consciousness (first-person subjective experience) comes from or "airbag deploys" from 100 billion star-shaped pieces of meat lumped together into the organ called "The Brain" (or subtract from 100 billion the number of star-shaped pieces of electrified meat forming the neocortex, as according to Slyvia Mader the cerebral cortex is the only portion of the brain responsible for consciousness). Consciousness magically comes into existence after previously being something that does not exist if the outer, higher-energy electrons in the outer shells of atoms making up the star-shaped pieces of meat being to play "Musical Chairs" with atoms forming other star-shaped pieces of meat clumped inside a skull.
4. There was a time when brains, and thus consciousness, did not exist. What existed when there was no such thing as first-person subjective experience which, by the way, is the ONLY thing that appears, manifests, or demonstrates that it exists? Why, non-subjective experience, or the "whatever" that is not and that is something other than consciousness (first-person subjective experience).
5. We supposedly experience non-experience or objects and events in the external world made up of non-experience, but anyone using just a gram of common sense can see this makes
no sense. You can only experience experience. How can one experience non-experience, as non-experience isn't experience? Thus objects and events not made up of consciousness cannot logically or rationally have anything to do with the existence and content of consciousness as, well, they are
not consciousness or made up of consciousness. In order for you to experience anything, it must be made up of subjective experience. Anything not materialistically composed or made up of subjective experience--- specifically, anything not materialistically composed of YOUR subjective experience (isolated from and as opposed to the subjective experience of any other being in existence), cannot be experienced.
6. Atheists mock the theist's faith in the existence of God, but they ironically
use faith to believe (and worse, assert the "irrefutable truth of") in
non-experience, and objects and events in made up of non-experience (in short, objects and events not created by the brain, that exist in the external world).
The upshot?
It may be that only consciousness (first-person subjective experience) exists, as we have absolutely no evidence for the existence of non-experience or non-experiential objects, and non-experience and non-experiential objects cannot logically use themselves to come up with experience...something they are not.
Thus, it may very well be that there are no such things as non-experiential or mind-independent objects and events, and only persons exist.
If God exists, he is the External Person, with the external world being not an infinite
space but the inner mind of an infinite, external
person. We exist within God, in the same way that Stephen King's characters exist inside him, in the form of ideas that have tiny consciousnesses of their own within a larger, surrounding consciousness (Acts 17:28).
This makes farrrrr more sense than brains magically creating consciousness, anything magically coming into existence and going out of existence (there is only consciousness, rather than physical matter and energy [which does not exist] changing form), or non-experience (something that is not or that is other than first-person subjective experience, the only thing that has ever appeared and the only thing that has ever demonstrated it exists) having anything to do with subjective experience, as non-experience is not subjective experience.