I used to think that I would only be happy if I made sure the people around me were happy- like my family, friends, and coworkers. All I did was fail, and that failure led to depression. I spent 9 weeks in a mental health hospital that gave me two pills in the morning to wake up and one pill in the evening to put to sleep. Needless to say, those pills didn't do anything except making me not feel any emotions and I felt like a zombie. Ten years later, I know that being happy comes from within myself and I choose to be happy. I don't need any "Magical Pill" to feel happy. Yes, money is helpful, but it just leads to wanting more money over and over. I can't make others happy but I have made it a point in life to smile and say hello to people. It's amazing how good you feel when you smile . Ironically, smiling is contagious.
The irony is that even though money doesn't happiness, happiness buys money. Once you become graceful with happy free-spirited inner peace, with a grateful and empowering abundance mindset, suddenly achieving incredible external success becomes so ridiculously easy. Once you stop chasing these things so desperately with such a negative unhappy needy attitude, they stop running from you. Once you stop chasing them, they start chasing you. Happiness leads to external success, not vice versa.
This is how I left my drug addiction. Every time I was down, I would be desperate to get more until the day I stopped, took a look around me, and thought "What am I doing? I know I can do better than this." All of the neediness had made my reality dismal. I knew I could do better, I was happy before the drug addiction. So I stopped and started repairing everything that I had not paid attention to. Looking back over my daily journals (I write something every day), seeing the progress I have made was enlightening. When I worked at a call center, smiling actually made the day go faster and my calls score higher on my quality assurance reports. I am happy, and will remain that way. By finding my authentic self, I can face any obstacle before me without trying to overthink and overcompensate to feel happy.